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[26 Oct 2006|01:55pm] |
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so, philip and i have been living together for six months now, and our lease is up on the first,which is wednesday! philip and i have both noticed[i've noticed, i just won't admit it as much] that we have been arguing a lot since we moved in together. i mean, when we didn't live together we NEVER argued. never. we were basically "perfect." i still feel as though we are perfect for each other, and always will be, but we are looking for our own apartments today. we only have a few days to find them, but we're going to try. i hope our relationships betters when we do this...i really didn't want to live without him. i really don't want to, but maybe it will be better. everyone says we'll appreciate our time together a lot more, but i just feel like i will hardly ever be able to see him. i should be okay financially, so i'm not too worried about that, but i'll still be working about six days a week, and i just hope we can still spend a lot of time together. i really do love that guy. i truly do. he told me yesterday that he doesn't want us to end up hating each other, which i can kind of see happening in the very far future if we keep living together. i guess we both just need our own space. (?) i was really upset yesterday when he was trying to talk to me about. i kind of looked at it like we were taking a step backwards, but he promises we aren't. i see what he's saying and i know he's right, i just don't want him to be. he said we will still see each other every day, promise. and we'll still sleep together at night. i'm still sad over this because i just like coming home after work and him being there, ya know. i like seeing him every morning and i'm going to miss him saying goodbye to me when i go to work. i'm going to miss that a lot. he always kisses me goodbye before i go to work. i'm going to miss that. i'm making this sound like we're breaking up, but we're not. he told me he wants to stay with me for as long as possible, and this should be good for us for now and for in the long run. i want to be with him for..well, forever if possible. i guess i'm still just trying to accept this decision. the only good side to it[that i see now], is that i'll be able to decorate my apartment full on hello kitty :) haha, i guess that's something to look forward to, heh. he said we'll give each other keys to each other's apartments and whatnot. i've become so comfortable with him being here with me all the time, it's going to be hard to get through this at first. i don't want anyone replying and saying,"oh...well....maybe he wants to get his own apartment so he can cheat on you." ...we're over that stage of accusing each other of stupid things. i know he'd never even think of cheating on me, and i never would either. that thought ran through my head at first, but that's just stupid. i know now, and always have known, that he really does love me. it's hard to get over that phase of accusing of him looking at girls, when he's really not, and accusing of him liking someone else, when there really isn't anyone else. it's strange because i still talk about him so highly like how i did when we first started dating. i really do think we're perfect for each other. i couldn't see myself with anyone else ever. we're not perfect at all by ourselves, but we just..i don't know, we bond well. [when we're not arguing over stupid stuff] we're going to look at some efficiencies today because if we're both not going to live in an apartment, that's all we'll really need. i do want a new mattress though. i don't have a tv or stereo or anything. is this going to make things better? i hope so
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i need to go to my history class more often. my spanish class is going well. i have a project due in abnormal psychology about schizophrenia. i'm actually looking forward to it. it feels SOFUCKINGGOOD out right now! i'd love to go swimming, but the gay man who tans with just a thong is out there and i don't feel like making confrontation. been working quite a bit; the tip money is good. i feel like taking a nap, but how could i waste this beautiffffulll day sleeping? speaking of sleep, i want to see the science of sleep, but who doesn't. philip is twenty one and we've been together for over a year now. i'm pretty happy, just a bit off. i need some female companionship, or something. i don't really 'have' anyone.
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[09 Jun 2006|11:19am] |
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philip left for his first day of work at papa john's a couple hours ago, so i'm stuck here by myself until i go to work at 4:00.
i'm pretty lonely right now and not to mention extremely bored.
i hope he enjoys it. he'll be delivering pizzas, so he'll be making pretty good money.
i've been working for niko niko's for about two weeks now and i'm liking it a lot. i work either 9-4 or 4-close five days a week and i haven't started making tips yet, but i will be in a week and a half.
then it'll all be worth it. some of the people i work with say they sometimes make 100bucks friday or saturday nights just in tips!
i'm pretty excited about that because then i won't have to worry about money anymore.
how have i been? well let me write it out.
philip and i will have been together ten months the 21st and time has gone by so fast. it's weird to think about how we were when we first got together. i never thought i would still be infatuated with someone after being with them 24hours a day, 7days a week, for 10 months, but i still am. i feel as if he thinks it's his fault when i get upset and/or break down and cry, but the thing is is that he's really the only thing that makes me happy anymore. i yelled at him yesterday and i feel fucking horrible about it. he was trying to make me feel better because i had a shitty day and all i did was cry and yell at him. what kind of girlfriend does that? i appreciate every little thing he does, i just need to show it more often. he's so fucking caring. i find myself sometimes thinking negative, like,"what if philip doesn't find me attractive anymore?" and i just dwell on that thought for a while and sometimes i tell him, but why should i even question that. why would we be living together if he didn't find me attractive anymore. right? right. oh, the computer is about to die.
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| chut up! |
[18 May 2006|04:25pm] |
really the only person on my friends list who i actually LIKE reading their posts is krusty.
everyone else can chut up
(well,maybe i like to read a couple others,but mainly just kristy's.)
what's been going on in the last month or so;
moved in with philip to our adorable apartment off of montrose.
love it
quit kroger after working there for two days :)
the ladies i worked with were such bitches, geez.
i just told the manager i was moving back to la porte, hah.
got a job at niko niko's today so hopefully i'll be starting next week.
hung out with vicky, veronica, and ross.
have a question to ask veronica.
loving philip more than ever
my cat broke philip's glasses in half
have been eating lots of 2dollar tofu sandwiches lately
i'm really,really broke though :c
miss kristy a LOT
miss kati b a LOT
:c
how are you, my friends?
philip got new glasses and i like them
but i love him.
you can come and check out our apartment if i like you.
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[21 Feb 2006|11:27am] |
i'm so;
in love
lucky
lucky i'm in love
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[10 Jan 2006|03:38pm] |
why am i in such an incredible mood today?!
philip and i couldn't sleep very well last night because of my fucking dog/cat/mouse/etc.
we woke up around noon and i sold a textbook, got some money, and went and ate at chipotle.
i have a to-do list for myself,
and i shall accomplish everything on it!
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| thanks, girlfriend. |
[10 Jan 2006|03:21pm] |
i was dreading going to work yesterday, but my night was enlightened by a certain someone!
kati b, you're my hero.
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[14 Dec 2005|07:01pm] |
this magnificent piece of artwork was done by my baby, philip.
i miss a lot of things lately
maybe it's because my cookie just stopped bleeding
my back hurts really bad, but hopefully this medicine will ease the pain.
took a two hour long bath earlier
i started to turn into a prune.
signed up for my interior design classes for the spring
i'm looking forward to it because i haven't gone to school in what seems like forever.
i'd really enjoy a party pizza right now
my mama is doing really well
i'm doing good
i'd like to find a new job, for real this time.
my brother keeps asking me to smell his hand
that is all;
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[04 Dec 2005|10:32pm] |
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i'm leaving in six hours and 30 minutes to go to the hospital with my mama so she can have a double mastectomy done.
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[27 Nov 2005|08:50pm] |
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i had just typed out this whole long update on my life, but my computer messed up so i'll just give the basics.
philip and i have been together for a little longer than three months now, and might i add that it's been the best three months of my life.
my mama is having her surgery next week and also, next week i get to take my paid vacation, hunnh! after my mama has this surgery done hopefully everything will be done with and her health will get better.
i'm really considering moving out with anna in the very near future[february or so]
i'm really excited about it,too!
i think we could definently work things out for the both of us
anna has found some nice apartments near ikea and did i mention that if i get a job at ikea they will pay for ALL of my college since i want to major in interior design?!! well, they will!
isn't that fuckin great?
i'm pretty psyched!
i've been working a lot lately since i'm not in school this semester
forty hours a week, booo.
i miss a some things/people
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[24 Oct 2005|11:02pm] |
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woke up this morning next to philip freezing cold
it was great!
layed there for a while and warmed up
ate at brown bag;
boca burger
jalapeno bread
mayo
lettuce
pickle on the side
baked lays
and a dr.pepper
that's our usual lunch place and it has the best boca burgers ever!
went to super value village and sand dollar in search of some long sleeved shirts for philip.
didn't find any
got some candy from CANDYLICIOUS; this amaazzzzinn' candy shop off of sheperd.
it even has abbazabbas!
philip has introduced me to these delicious little candies called "zotz"
or is it "zots"? i don't know, but they're like having an explosion in your mouth!
went back to philips
opened up the windows
and chilllllled
no waking up early in the morning to leave for work
no waking up early in the morning for school
it was epitomy of perfect.
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[18 Oct 2005|06:23pm] |
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p.s. anna marie higgins, i love you.
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[18 Oct 2005|06:12pm] |
i finally have some sort of motivation.
i've always been interested in pursuing a career in interior design/decorating
and i don't know why i didn't decide to take interior design classes when i first started college, but now i've finally decided that that's what i'm going to do.
i'm really quite bored of taking classes that i don't want to take, but 'have' to take.
history before 1877? history after 1877? speech?
useless
at least for me.
starting this winter, hopefully, i'll enroll in the introductory interior design classes
and then go on from there.
i'm really pretty psyched!
it feels good knowing exactly what i want to do.
so that's my college update.
philip and i have been together[literally, every day] for about two months now, and i can honestly say that i've never been happier.
it's pretty amazing how one person can make you feel so content.
also, i realize that i do spend pretty much allmy free-time with him, but i can't help it.
plus, isn't it a good thing to spend time with the people who make you feel happy in general?
i've lost a friend,
but this was my decision.
i just feel that it's better that we don't talk/see each other.
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| philip leach is... |
[11 Sep 2005|02:54pm] |
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aces, amazing, astonishing, astounding, bang-up, best, breathtaking, cool, crack, dilly, doozie, extravagant, fab, fantastic, fictitious, first class, gone, greatest, groovy, immense, in spades, inconceivable, incredible, legendary, marvelous, mind-blowing, out-of-this-world, outrageous, peachy, phenomenal, primo, prodigious, rad, remarkable, spectacular, striking, stupendous, super, superb, terrific, top drawer, tops, turn-on, unbelievable, unreal, wicked, wondrous
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[09 Sep 2005|04:59am] |
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wednesday my mama had her last chemotherapy treatment :]
she's going to have to get both breasts removed, just to be safe, but she's going to try and wait until next year so she'll have some time to relax; to be normal again.
i would like everyone to know that philip james leach is the most amazing boy ever.
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[29 Aug 2005|12:16pm] |
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school started today
i'm taking psychology and college algebra monday, wednesdays, and fridays
then i'm taking speech and history tuesdays and thursdays.
i'm determined to make all a's this semester[or at least just pass]
and not drop any of my classes.
think i can do it?
i'm taking psychology for the third time this semester. how sad is that!
i guess i'll actually start going to class.
so what have i been up to, you ask?
lots of;
philip
and cakes
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[19 Aug 2005|03:17am] |
it's really upsetting to see her like this
i just wish there was more i could do.
she was throwing up a lot tonight and i could just tell that she was about to start crying
and it's just
just i donno
why the fuck did she have to get sick? of all the people.
it's weird
i'll sometimes wake up in the middle of the night just to make sure she's alright, and i'll just sit there by her and stare at her. i hope she never wakes up when i do this because it's a way to cope with what i'm feeling right now and i'd rather not let her know.
this disease needs to leave her alone.
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[19 Aug 2005|01:27am] |
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i really miss a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot of things
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[09 Aug 2005|07:20am] |
on a scale of 1-10
one being the least
and ten being the most
i'm a ten!!
f u pain! niqqas.
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